forgive english, i am Russia.

We sex together. I never before now am tell my mother about gay because i am very shame. As i ♥♥♥♥ this American boy it is very good to me but also i am feel so guilty. I feel extreme guilty as I begin orgasm. I feel so guilty that I pick up my telephone and call Mother in Russia. I awaken her. It too late for stopping so I am ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ sex. I am very upset and guilty and crying, so I yell her, "I AM ♥♥♥ FROM SEX" (in Russia). She say what? I say "I COME FROM SEX" and she say you boy, do not marry American girl, and I say "NO I AM ♥♥♥ FROM SEX WITH MAN, I AM IN ASS, I ♥♥♥ IN ASS" and my mother very angry me. She not get scared though.
I hang up phone and am very embarrass.. I am guilt and feel very stupid. I wonder, why do I gay with man?.