1st August 2024

uaeb is back and I couldn’t be happier. He only made 3 posts but I believe this is it, and he will now be back forever and ever, he will do it for me. It is as though he has been sneaking into my house and reading my diary about him. If he has been doing this I will be so happy, because it means he has seen my living area and knows how much of it is truly dedicated to uaeb and his gaming lifestyle and life in general. I hope this is the case and will sleep with nothing on tonight just in case.

28th July 2024

There were no uaeb posts today. I have tried to meditate in order to come to terms with the fact that he is not posting here as much. It is helping. I thought of my favourite uaeb volumes and recited them to myself in a quiet, humming tone, close to throat singing them at times. I felt much more relaxed. At one stage I felt the hand of uaeb himself touch my shoulder. He told me to listen for a Bejazzled Bobcat howling at the moon, I think he meant Coyote. I will listen for this during future meditations. I feel much more at peace today

27th July 2024

Today was the end of the month and it ended the way the entire month has been as a whole. With a nice amount of uaeb but not enough to fully satisfy my hankering and need for his posting. He posted 17 times today in a very slow thread and this included some excellently long and intriguing posts about Path of Exile and Steam where he debated with a Belgian poster about Path of Exile's game mechanics. I was so proud to see him win his debate. It shows his true mastery of the English language that even somebody who does not speak it as their native knew that they had no chance of fighting back against him. Maybe soon I will intentionally debate with uaeb so he attacks me and swears at me. I will feel as though I am being chained to his fence and whipped and poked with hot chains, it will be very abusive and may upset me but in the longer term I will enjoy it.

Wanna explain this?
📁Local Disk (C:)
└📁Program Files (x86)
⠀└📁steam
⠀⠀└📁steamapps
⠀⠀⠀└📁common
⠀⠀⠀⠀└📁Counter-Strike: Global Offensive
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀└📁Skills
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀└⚠️This folder is empty
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀└📁 Aim
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀└⚠️This folder is empty

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RIP Beau miss you everyday :(