You will never be Japanese. You have no ancestry, you have no citizenship, you have no skills that would make Japan ever want you. You are a shut-in self-hating white man twisted by delusions of mythical Japanese superiority and exposure to Japanese media into a disgusting mockery of nature’s perfection. All 'validation' you get from other people in this position couldn't be worse in making you believe that spending years of your life learning a globally useless language to a first-grader's level was a worthwhile use of your time, but one can't expect that an individual as pathetic as you will ever know the value of the youth you threw away in doing that. Actual Japanese are utterly repulsed by you.

⣸⣿⣿⣿⣠⠏⡔⠁⠄⠐⠢⠣⢡⣙⠄⡇⣶⣿⣿⣿⣿⢟⣻⣿⣿⠏
⣿⣿⣿⡇⢩⠘⣴⣿⣥⣤⢦⢁⠄⠉⡄⡇⠛⠛⠛⢛⣭⣾⣿⣿⡏⠄
⣿⣿⣿⡇⠹⢇⡹⣿⣿⣛⣓⣿⡿⠞⠑⣱⠄⢀⣴⣿⣿⣿⣿⡟⠄⠄
⣿⣿⣿⣧⣸⡄⣿⣪⡻⣿⠿⠋⠄⠄⣀⣀⢡⣿⣿⣿⣿⡿⠋⠄⠄⠄
⠘⣿⣿⣿⣿⣷⣭⣓⡽⡆⡄⢀⣤⣾⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⡿⠋⠄⠄⠄⠄⠄
⠄⢨⡻⡇⣿⢿⣿⣿⣭⡶⣿⣿⣿⣜⢿⡇⡿⠟⠉⠄⠄⠄⠄⠄⠄⠄
⠄⠸⣷⡅⣫⣾⣿⣿⣿⣷⣙⢿⣿⣿⣷⣦⣚⠄⠄⠄⠄⠄⠄⠄⠄⠄
⠄⠄⢉⣾⡟⠙⠶⠖⠈⢻⣿⣷⣅⢻⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣶⣶⡆⠄⣤⡀⠄
⠄⢠⣿⣿⣧⣀⣀⣀⣀⣼⣿⣿⣿⡎⢿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣇⠄⠈⠁⠄
⠄⢸⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⢇⣎⢿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣶⣶⠄
⠄⠄⠻⢿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⢟⣫⣾⣿⣷⡹⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⡟⠄
⠄⠄⠄⠄⢮⣭⣍⡭⣭⡵⣾⣿⣿⣿⡎⣿⣿⣌⠻⠿⠿⠿⠟⠋⠄⠄

⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣀⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣀⡀⢀⡀⠀⠀⠀
⣤⣶⣶⡿⠿⠿⠿⠿⠿⣶⣶⣶⠄⠀⠀⠐⢶⣶⣶⣿⡿⠿⠿⠿⠿⢿⣷⠦⠀
⠙⠏⠁⠀⣤⣶⣶⣶⣶⣒⢳⣆⠀⠀⠀⠀⢠⡞⣒⣲⣶⣖⣶⣦⡀⠀⠉⠛⠁
⠀⠀⠴⢯⣁⣿⣿⣿⣏⣿⡀⠟⠀⠀⠀⠀⠸⠀⣼⣋⣿⣿⣿⣦⣭⠷⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢠⠟⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⡄⠀⢰⠏⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣀⣠⡴⠟⠁⢀⡟⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠸⡗⠶⠶⠶⠶⠶⠖⠚⠛⠛⠋⠉⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠛⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

⣤⣤⣤⣤⣤⣤⡀⠀⠀⢀⣷⣶⣤⣄⣀⠀⠀⢠⣤⣤⣤⣤⣤⣀⠀⠀⣤⣤⣤⠀⠀⠀⠠⣤⣤⣤⣤⣤⣤⣤⠠⣤⣤⣤⡄⢀⣤⣤⣤⣤
⢸⣿⣿⡟⣿⣿⣿⡆⠀⣸⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⡟⢸⣿⣿⣟⢻⣿⣿⣷⠀⣿⣿⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⠀⠈⢿⣿⣿⣾⣿⣿⠏⠘
⢸⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⠁⢀⣿⣿⣿⣉⣽⣿⣿⠇⢸⣿⣿⣿⢿⣿⣿⣅⠀⣿⣿⣿⠀⠀⠀⢸⣿⣿⣏⣉⣿⣿⣿⠀⠀⠀⣽⣿⣿⣿⡅⠀⠀
⢸⣿⣿⡇⢹⣿⣿⣧⢸⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⡟⠀⢸⣿⣿⣷⣴⣿⣿⣿⠀⣿⣿⣿⣦⣤⣤⢸⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⠀⢠⣾⣿⣿⢿⣿⣿⣦⠀
⠘⠛⠛⠃⠈⠛⠛⠛⠀⠀⠈⠉⠛⠻⠿⠇⠀⠈⠛⠛⠛⠛⠛⠉⠁⠀⠛⠛⠛⠛⠛⠛⠀⠛⠛⠛⠛⠛⠛⠛⠀⠛⠛⠛⠁⠀⠙⠛⠛⠓

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣀⣀⣠⣤⣤⣀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣠⣤⣶⣾⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣧⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣀⣤⣾⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣴⣾⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣀⢾⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⠿⠛⢋⣭⡍⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⠀
⠀⢀⣴⣶⣶⣝⢷⡝⢿⣿⣿⣿⠿⠛⠉⠀⠀⣰⣿⣿⢣⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⡇
⢀⣾⣿⣿⣿⣿⣧⠻⡌⠿⠋⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⢰⣿⣿⡏⣸⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿
⣼⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⡇⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠻⢿⠇⢻⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⡟
⠙⢹⣿⣿⣿⠿⠋⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠻⢿⣿⣿⡿⠟⠁
⠀⠀⠉⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

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